resume

This thing has been just sitting here gathering some cyberspace dust! I feel like I walked into the attic I never had/still don't have and found this relic from a life I used to have a long long time ago....like 4 months ago.

Not to be all "pshaw life after college is soooo different (insert world-weary hair flip)" but it kind of really is. Not necessarily in a bad way. I think I was born to be middle-aged so easing into 'adulthood' is happening with less trauma/drama than easing into 'young adulthood' involved. Sometimes it's really tiring and frustrating and discouraging and infuriating to be responsible for 17 three- and four-year olds but life in the desert really is a new season in my life, and I'm super grateful for that.

It's great because I stumbled upon this nugget of wisdom the other day, that God surrounds you with people who reveal the kind of person you have been to Him. I mulled on that thought for a bit and was like "awesome! I have great people in my life!" and then during the middle of a particularly zooish day at school, it hit me that I'm surrounded (literally) everyday by 17 three and four year olds who can be so mindblowingly selfish, self-centered, and reckless. W.h.o.a....I mean they can also be flippin hilarious and sweet and surprise me everyday but right now we're all still learning how to be in the class together and it is super humbling that 1) I am responsible for preparing these kids for kindergarten/life in general and that 2) I have a visible reflection of what I look like in my relationship with God. But everyday there is growth and there is hope. For example, the other day I nearly cried when one of my particularly difficult kids (a really young 3, very few words, super active and reckless) was able to fix his mistake (our number one rule in class) and asked a friend he had accidentally bumped into, "Tu OK?" He resumed running around after that but progress nonetheless!!

Random postscript: The lady at Lux read my mind and brought over some gorgeous flowers in a vase for our table. Soy latte, catching up on my feeds, a good book, and flowers...what a grand way to start the morning!